At age 7, I was sexually abused my biological father. 

Years later when I told my mom, I was heartbroken when she didn’t support me and asked me to forget and move on.

I was gaslighted and denied upon asking him and needing answers.

It went on for 3 years.

Then in my early teens at age 12 I was raped by a man who shot a video of it. I couldn’t process it at 13 that that was rape. I never told anyone.

Then at 13 I got into a relationship which became physical quickly. I went all the way without having any knowledge of sex. There were times when the guy verbally abused me and tortured me to stay with him only.

It still brings me pain and regret of giving it all to some guy I barely knew.

When my family got to know, my dad told me I’m disgusting and have no self respect and shouldn’t have ever been born. I felt broken and thought it’s all my fault. I’d ask my parents to forgive me.

I’m 23 now and still live here. I plan to be estranged from this family I never chose to be a part of.