When I was 12 i was sleeping in my moms bed and her boyfriend at the time moved my hand and made me masterbate him.

This happened 3 times. I was not feeling traumatized by that. It felt good (I was developing my queer sexuality) what traumatized me was his gaslighting and telling me I was not to be “doing that”.

It’s took 8 years to be able to accept my sexuality, 30 years to let his actions go and not let them haunt me and almost 40 years before I was comfortable enough to openly discuss this.