I was raised by toxic parents and a dysfunctional family. 

My parents never give me unconditional love. Their love has always been conditional. 

I have been bullied in school and in the workplace several times but my parents not only didn’t help me or emotionally stand by my side, but they blamed the victim, which is me. 

I still live with my parents and I’m spending my lunar new year with them but I can’t feel any love or warm emotion at all.

I guess I’d rather spend time on gay bathhouse than staying at my home with my parents.

But unfortunately I still never experienced any love romance and still have no boyfriend or significant other even now.

Sometimes I do feel extremely faithless and disappointed but I still don’t want to lose to fate or destiny.

Han-Koh