I am 30 years old. As long as I remember I have always been a silent kid in my house.
I never complained about anything during my childhood, never asked for anything from my parents, never had friends over and never cried. But nobody noticed.
My whole life I obeyed everyone and everything in my house, so I was always the good kid. But once after high school when I finally decided to take a stand and started saying NO, I became the ‘bad kid’. Still nobody noticed.
After 7 years of molestation, when I was 16 years old, I told my mother what my father did to me. All of sudden I was treated like another woman who was ruining their marriage and not as a kid who was abused by her own parent, in her own house.
I was told, “wait few years!”, “he’s still your father!”, “what will everyone say!”, “get married!” and you will be safe. I am 30 now, but still can’t sleep, can’t love, can’t cry, still I am that 12 years old, sitting in the dark so he won’t find me and will go to sleep without…..!