NO LONGER KEEPING SECRETS

I was sexually abused from age five to 10

Not long was i alive on this Earth when my mum met that man and made him her husband

That’s when i learned to keep secrets

I was his little secret

At 7, I begged her not to marry him but she did and years later had the cheek to blame me for ruining her marriage

She could never say she didn’t know because it was her who caught him in the act

He could not lie or deny because she saw with her very own eyes

Throughout the years i have tried to forgive and forget

This I will never forget

The time I’ve lost thinking about this is time i will never get back
At times i relive the physical, psychological and emotional pain

I’m fully aware it will never go away

Some of my relationships have really suffered over the years
I will always be scarred even though none of this was my fault
It has been traumatic to say the least

To say I’ve been through a lot in my life is an understatement

I have been through heaps.